Aaron "Sphinx"

Mike and I just had the 'let's just be friends talk', for no other reason than his work and school schedule is requiring most of his energies and he doesn't have the time nor energy for anything more than a friendship.

So that's where we are with that. : /
And I'm fine with it, mainly because I do want time and energy after all.
Relationships...it's not all about compatibility, there is an element of timing to them as well.

*sigh* Oh well.
*snaps fingers* NEXT!!!

A shout out to da_diva for giving me this song of the day:



It's Sarah and it's on repeat! This song is amazing.

The Lyrics:
( The Words to the Song )

So everyone I know who is spiritually sensitive have experienced the following:
1. Disruption in sleep schedule - only able to sleep 3-4 hours at a time.
2. The sleep is restless - feeling like one has been active the entire time.
3. Upon waking one is in need of grounding - eating protein like doing a major spiritual undertaking.
4. Their is a sense of pain - either emotional or physical

I checked in with others. The following communities admit to feeling this same things:
Feri Community
Unnamed Path Community
My Coven
My Church
My local gay-pagan group

So for you will-workers, spiritual sensitive types, what the heck is going on?!?
I know something is going on. Specifically what? Dunno.
Anyone have any insights?

I didn't get to sit today.
Woke up with errands on the brain. My new bedframe arrived as well.
I caved for convenience and went into Wal-mart to finish shopping. It was very near where I picked up the bedframe. And I remembered why I never like shopping there. Forty-five minutes while waiting for check out, it just un-fucking-acceptable. However I did a 'short-cut' alignment while waiting in line.

I leave the store and head home. While driving my phone rings and I get that I missed a call at the same moment. Yeah, reception in Wal-mart. It's my Mom. Her Uncle John died today. He either died causing a wreck or the wreck caused his death. He was an elderly man. A good man. The important bit for me here is that he was my Mom's Paternal figure since she lost her dad at eighteen. Losing him so soon after losing her brother is a double whammy.

I'm okay. My Mom is not.

Today's Theme found in a Rumi Quote:

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

First a shout out to da_diva for her acting gig!
You go girl!!! And I have questions!

Second my parents are giving my brother and I some of our inheritance money early, so they can 'watch us enjoy it'. My enjoyment involves paying off two of my four debts, establishing my emergency fund a-la Dave Ramsey, and getting some long over due odds and ends finished.

So I hope the financial blessing continue to grow and blossom.

Spiritual stuffs is going good.
Shadow/vampire stuff is chunky...I need to only play ONE character at vampire games...period!
Everything has become streamlined and stronger as a result.

Oh...and Yodelling makes me giggle...alot!

...we are the largest city to vote in an openly gay Mayor.

How to do this meme: Using only EPISODE names from ONE TV SHOW, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat an episode title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "My life according to (show)".

Describe yourself: "Human Factor"
How do you feel: "Stranger than Fiction "
Describe where you currently live: "The Fix"
If you could go anywhere where would you go: "Outside the Lines"
Your favorite form of transportation: "Dance by the Light of the Moon"
Your best friend is: "Dying for Fame"
What's the weather like: "Dead Air"
Favorite time of day: "Dead of Night"
If your life was a TV show, it would be called: "Hearts of Darkness"
What is life to you: "Curiouser and Curiouser"
Your fear: "Blind Faith"
What is the best advice you have to give: "Let No Man Tear Asunder"
Thought for the Day: "Games Vampires Play"
How I would like to die: "My Boyfriend is a Vampire" or "Near Death"
My soul's present condition: "The Fire Inside"
My motto: "Can't Run, Can't Hide"

I find it odd the highs and lows I go through in a day. From complete disconnection to total connection and back again. These spans of sensation use to cycle over weeks. Then days. Now within a day?

A friend contacted me and asked if I could go to dinner, I could not because of other engagements. The other engagements however were not worthwhile and I was so wrapped up in an innane conversation, I did not leave. I should have and had a much more pleasant dinner instead. Were I more focused I'd like to think I would have left. Hind-sight and all that...

Later at home instead of cleaning, I lost myself in a game. So lost that I forgot to eat and came to work hungry. However in preparation for work I had one of the most intense spiritual experience/breaktroughs in some time.

I arrived to work happy, albeit hungry.
A different friend contacted me. Our going through similar, yet different experiences. We were able to hold each other in our places of need and gently guide each other back to center.

So here I sit at work centered, connected.
And all I want to do is socialize.
Ah, me. ;)
OH and work has Cracker Jacks, which is very carmel happy popcorn making!!!

Even thought New York voted down the Gay Marriage bill, Diane Savino's comments kicked ass:

...be what you do." ~Rumi

I love interpreting. It makes my heart sing and my soul expand. It gives me connection to two, while remaining one. It gives me fullness of pride. I know who I am, what I am good at, what I am not. I know where to begin, where to end. I know.

This has always been the one sphere in my life that has overflowed with blessings. The worse day of work is still a joyous day for me, because I do what I love and get paid for it.

Today I had a note from my boss, with my new schedule starting February, she stated something in error. Two of my days of work have built in 15% differentials. While that does not make up for five days of 20%, it does lessen the blow and makes me happy. :D

Do what makes your heart sing.
Do what makes you feel connected.
Do what makes you feel good.

...I wait.
Budget adjusted, applications sent, potential work hours modified, etc.

Comfortable in the knowledge I put work into action.
Peaceful that outcomes will be good and needed.
Excited about the coming change and what it will bring.

In short I had Coven last night and the Work was the awesome.

**Anyone know of a good car/home/renter insurance to use?**

With my losing the graveyard shift at work, I lose 500-600 dollars of take home income a month.

Action Items:
Quit gym membership. *check*
Changed my cable/internet plan. *check* (no more movie channels)
Changed cell-phone plan. *check*
Review insurance companies to see if there is a better one out there. *in process*
Review monthly budget for other areas to cut back. *in process*

Work plans:
1. HCC. Finished application, waiting on them. Will follow-up Friday or Monday.
2. Work at Video Relay and alter hours with the addition of freelance work.
a. Need to know shift Differentials and Time tables. *email sent to boss*
b. Need to make preliminary schedules. (Need 2.a for this)
c. Need to contact interpreter agencies to give availability to work. (this happens mid-January)

Doing a lot and seeing little result. *check*
Pitching a fit in
3...2...1...

Given the news of yesterday my options appear to be (for the moment):
1. Apply for HCC's interpreter position. (done - need interview and salary quote, both out of my hands. I have done my part.)
2. Suck it up, continue at current job, switch to days and work at interpreter agencies during my 'free time' Monday and Thursday evenings. No more during the week free time. But I may have to do it.

Preliminary plans made and actions taken, I'm finally more relaxed. Hopefully other options will present themselves. We shall see what comes up.

I had a great evening with friends at my house. Great company, great conversation, the time got away from us. :)

At work I'm told my hours may need to change. No more graveyards.
This also means no more graveyard differential.
Which means I will be strapped for money starting February.
I'm in a bit of shock over this and concerned what it will mean for me financially. I need to look over my budget.

I am Thankful for this life and this time.

The holiday oddities twist and make an awe inspiring labyrinth.
And while I walk to center more weirdness.

The things I want have not been the things I need.
Release. Open.
The things I need become the things I want.
Recieve. Hold.

Speciifcs for a more intimate setting, not this form. ;)

First, I saw "New Moon".
Second, I am now in love with the series.

The movie goes expands on Vampiric society and Edward is *not* typical.
Yes they still glow, but they are also evil.
This was my favorite scene, because Jane is the awesome:


I want to see it again.
...oh and there were werewolves or some such. ;)

So I read this article about 'heteroflexible'. It is trying to get away from labels...by adding a label. While I do find this article interesting, I believe it only touches on a truth. Thoughts, comments, please.

http://www.afterelton.com/TV/2009/7/heteroflexible-the-new-gay?page=0%2C0

No longer blowing Highlighter fluid out of my nostrils.
Still a bit under the weather and I'm back at work.

FOFL. If you've been married in Texas, the majority of Texans may have just annulled your marriage. Look:
http://www.star-telegram.com/804/story/1770189.html